what a sad day...

....sigh....main things for today...i woke up and went to my drum lesson...and then i went and helped my dad cut up and haul off a treee that had crushed the fence...and then natalie was supposed to get her computer today and i was gonna go over to her house and help her set everything up and install everything cause she wanted me to...and so i went but it turns out that she couldnt get it today for some odd reason...and shes gonna get it monday...but she made me stay anyway...not that i didnt want to...cause i love hangin out with her...but yeah anyway...natalie broke up with austin today...and it made me really sad and i wrote a poem about it... here it is...

it was the way...she looked at me when i could not deal with life...it was the way...that her whispers seemed to kiss my ear...when she would whisper the words..."i love you"...it was the way that the beauty of everything of her...could make me forget my worst day....it was the way....that her eyes stared into mine...and could make nothing else matter....it was the way she spoke to me...when she said we would never part....it was the way she kissed me...with every passion that breathed within her....that made me believe that true love had found us...it made me believe....that this heaven would never end...it made me believe...all you had ever said to me....was true....but now i realize...that this has only been a game that i have played with you from the beginning...a game i can never win...and now i realize....that i have lost something of greater value than can be expressed....in any form....i have lost what i held on to....and thought i loved....only for it to be stolen away from me...without a reason....without a cause...and losing that....is losing everything....i have bet all my chips in this game....and now i have lost...all that i could have had and been....all to a shattered love....or perhaps....a love that was never there....

this is coming from austins point of view...because i talked with him about it and tried to make him feel better...but you know how that never works...but anyway...at least SOMEONE needs to pray for both of them...i know i am...but i really hope everything turns out...i doubt theyre getting back together but just pray that theyll both be able to get through this...im so sorry for both of you guys...